Wednesday, March 22, 2006

confessions

I'm feeling better today. Thanks for letting me vent. I'm very sorry if my list offended any of you (cough, cough, Renee and Sherri, cough, cough) - please still call me! I was just in a mood!

Ya know, even though I'm a Christian, I'm so imperfect. SO IMPERFECT. During church tonight, I realized that...

- I do not spend enough time in prayer
- I do not spend enough time in the Word
- I let worldy influences like t.v., music and movies be too big in my life
- I am too critical of others
- my mouth is my biggest enemy

God is working in my life on all these issues. I don't want to just be a "Christian" - I want to be a reflection of Jesus. I might be the only reflection of Jesus some people will ever see. That's huge. What a responsibility. I don't have the right to have a bad day really. I don't have the right to be easily offended by people, to be critical of people, to not show love to anyone - I really don't have the right after He suffered and died to save me and even breathed life into me and made me who I am. I'm just so not worthy of all I've been given.

In other news...our Sr. Pastors are in New Orleans right now. They're from that area originally and pastored a church there at one time. Their son had just returned from N.O. today and spoke tonight. He was very passionate about the things God had put in his heart to say. I could feel by proxy the pain that he felt as he talked about the area and how devastated it is. I kept thinking, "that could be me, that could be me" and I kept thinking about my house and my life and how blessed I am. I don't want to forget about those people. I don't know what I can do but I can pray. Sometimes that's all we can do. While I'm praying, I'll pray that God will help me be more like Him too.

Just sharing my heart tonight.

Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

James 5:16 - 21st Century King James Version

10 comments:

Jen Jen said...

I got the same thing from church tonight. By the way, I love you warts and all.

stephanie said...

You know, I think those very thoughts at church too!

"My mouth is my biggest enemy" resonates to my soul today. I needed that reminder to keep my thoughts and words in check.

And, I love you, warts and all too!

:)

Gina Bolling said...

Wow, I needed to read this today. Just to know that everyone struggles is encouragement. I could have been writing some of this...not enough prayer, critical of others, and the mouth. I've got to learn to shut my mouth! I'm just feeling a little discouraged because no women showed up at church for prayer, it was cold, someone forgot to unlock the door, didn't really want to get up early anyway (I scheduled around someone else.), and just general "me me me" stuff. Thanks for sharing about your faith. It's encouraging to me-just a stranger. ~Gina

Renee Graham said...

Cough Cough...Hmm..I was being funny (or trying too be). I was hoping you meant "soliciter" phone calls at home, not friends. Don't really know how to spell solicitor is that right? Anyhoo...I love ya, but not sure about the whole wart thing.

annkelli said...

Eewwww...
Warts?
Don't fret - we all have our days
and so much to be thankful for!

Christina said...

I have the same FIVE things on my list, too. Especially the mouth thing. It's always getting me into trouble.

Crystal said...

Are you sure I didn't write that list? I keep coming back to those same things.

We moved here from the Gulf Coast about a year before Katrina, and DH went to seminary in NO for a little while. It is such a humbling thought to know that it's only through grace that we still have our possessions. That storm could have hit at any time, but God chose to spare us. It's heartbreaking to hear stories from our friends in the area.

doris said...

i missed out on a wart conversation? :D

hope your sunday is wonderful! :D

kellicrowe said...

dude
i have been feeling out of sorts the past couple of weeks
just not myself
distracted
easily annoyed
not productive
and i figured it out
maybe i have been too much like myself and not enough like Jesus
dude
i need to get back to my morning bible study time
and my mouth
MAN MY MOUTH
which is a portal to my BRAIN
i need to get them back in check
and another thing...
oh wait
this is YOUR blog:)
thanks for the entry today
totally hit me
kellicrowe

Jann said...

my sweet friend...

I am back on this continent -- and catching up with you via your blog (we REALLY have to do this in person soon)...I have missed you girl.

Am going to head to bed...because I want to get up and have some quiet time...perhaps specifically focusing on my MOUTH! Wow...what a great reminder. Confession is good for MANY souls...it softened my heart to hear what God needed me to hear tonight....

Thanks so much....