Ya know, even though I'm a Christian, I'm so imperfect. SO IMPERFECT. During church tonight, I realized that...
- I do not spend enough time in prayer
- I do not spend enough time in the Word
- I let worldy influences like t.v., music and movies be too big in my life
- I am too critical of others
- my mouth is my biggest enemy
God is working in my life on all these issues. I don't want to just be a "Christian" - I want to be a reflection of Jesus. I might be the only reflection of Jesus some people will ever see. That's huge. What a responsibility. I don't have the right to have a bad day really. I don't have the right to be easily offended by people, to be critical of people, to not show love to anyone - I really don't have the right after He suffered and died to save me and even breathed life into me and made me who I am. I'm just so not worthy of all I've been given.
In other news...our Sr. Pastors are in New Orleans right now. They're from that area originally and pastored a church there at one time. Their son had just returned from N.O. today and spoke tonight. He was very passionate about the things God had put in his heart to say. I could feel by proxy the pain that he felt as he talked about the area and how devastated it is. I kept thinking, "that could be me, that could be me" and I kept thinking about my house and my life and how blessed I am. I don't want to forget about those people. I don't know what I can do but I can pray. Sometimes that's all we can do. While I'm praying, I'll pray that God will help me be more like Him too.
Just sharing my heart tonight.
Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
James 5:16 - 21st Century King James Version