Monday, September 11, 2006

pooped

I am so tired.

Today was my first gig as Coordinator for the Primary Group in our homeschool group. (K-1st) The theme for this month was butterflies. I read them a book about butterflies. (Did you know that butterflies flit from leaf to leaf laying eggs that are in a shell?) We colored a page about butterflies. We learned the different parts of a butterfly. We said "butterfly" in 10 different languages. We played a game where we wrapped each other up in a cocoon of toilet paper. We did jumping jacks, touch-your-toes, and a running game called "don't spill the beans!" all in about 2 hours.

Then....I attempted to nap but instead laid awake thinking of 9/11.

Then we went to CC's Girl Scouts meeting where I was drafted into volunteer duty as the cutter of shapes for cards they were making. Fun. (Can you hear the sarcasm?)

All of this on about 2 hours sleep. I stupidly watched a documentary about 9/11 at 11 pm last night and it depressed me. I had seen it before. It was on Channel 5. Did you see it? I turned it off at 11:45 pm but all night I had images of people jumping from the fire down 80 floors. When I see scenes from that day, my heart physically aches. I always cry. I don't think the sadness will ever leave me. It's almost more than I can bear and I didn't even know anyone that was there. So sad.

So tonight I'll be taking a big fat sleeping pill and hitting the hay about 9 pm.

I am pooped.

5 comments:

Jill Marie Gross-LaFaye said...

So tell us how to say "butterfly" in 10 different languages..that is very cool..I think..September 11th is very painful for me also..I will always remember where I was when the first plan hit..and the horrible sadness that day..I lost my Grandma 15 days later..it was like losing a Mother..she was my rock..my stability..my window to God..my life. I think of her on this day..this was the day of the last phone conversation I had with her..discussing the events of that day. God bless the families that lost friends and family on that day.

Elissa said...

WOW! Your butterfly day sounds awesome.

I have to stay away from stuff about 9/11. It is too close to home for me. I had bad dreams for years. I will never forget.

Hollye said...

That is why I refused to watch TV yesterday. I know I will never forget that day. I had a BAD memory, but I remember every single thing about that day down to exactly what I was wearing. Yesterday was a day of "happy thoughts" at our house. Miss K and I sat on the floor and read books and looked at photo albums and played. No thinking about anything sad. I couldn't emotionally handle it.

Chelle said...

Wow you did some awesome butterfly stuff! It amazes me that you taught and did that much in 2 hours. I'm impressed.

annkelli said...

Sounds like you did a great job.
I know you have really taken time planning for your home school group.
Wish I was doing it with you!